Filipe
04-11-2005, 02:05 PM
and those who didn't know, you will now know.
I've been seeing a counselor since the beginning of this semester after being told to look into it by my advisor. I had a lot of problems and needed to get them worked out.
A couple weeks ago, I was diagnosed with social anxiety disorder. It really affected me. I had an ROTC scholarship set to start next year, to pay full tuition for the next 3 years. I was so stressed when I was involved with the ROTC that I stopped going. I stopped going to PT (except for the fitness test), I stopped going to the marching for fear of screwing up in front of the upper classmen. I had difficulties making friends and felt depressed as a result of that and no running. The stress led to insomnia and I started missing classes.
At the end of the semester, I'd lost my scholarship, I'd sunk to a 1.93GPA (1 F, 1 D, 2 Cs, 2 As--it didn't help that my high school didn't teach me math--calculus was bad as a result)) and I was in a bad spot. Friday afternoon, there was an awards ceremony for the top OU students and groups. I should've been there. I should've had at least a 3.8 GPA, I should've had a running club (that failed to take off because some people wanted to work with me and they didn't discuss things with me), I should've been one of the top 1% of OU freshmen (based on participation, academic achievement, community service, and excellence). I wasn't there. I just found out about the awards ceremony in the paper today. Reading it knocked me down, reminded me why I came to OU, and I wanted to share it with you.
Seek help if you need it. I knew I needed it, but never got it before because I was afraid, because my parents told me I didn't need it. That was a big mistake. I needed help. I still need help. But at least I'm getting it.
I've been seeing a counselor since the beginning of this semester after being told to look into it by my advisor. I had a lot of problems and needed to get them worked out.
A couple weeks ago, I was diagnosed with social anxiety disorder. It really affected me. I had an ROTC scholarship set to start next year, to pay full tuition for the next 3 years. I was so stressed when I was involved with the ROTC that I stopped going. I stopped going to PT (except for the fitness test), I stopped going to the marching for fear of screwing up in front of the upper classmen. I had difficulties making friends and felt depressed as a result of that and no running. The stress led to insomnia and I started missing classes.
At the end of the semester, I'd lost my scholarship, I'd sunk to a 1.93GPA (1 F, 1 D, 2 Cs, 2 As--it didn't help that my high school didn't teach me math--calculus was bad as a result)) and I was in a bad spot. Friday afternoon, there was an awards ceremony for the top OU students and groups. I should've been there. I should've had at least a 3.8 GPA, I should've had a running club (that failed to take off because some people wanted to work with me and they didn't discuss things with me), I should've been one of the top 1% of OU freshmen (based on participation, academic achievement, community service, and excellence). I wasn't there. I just found out about the awards ceremony in the paper today. Reading it knocked me down, reminded me why I came to OU, and I wanted to share it with you.
Seek help if you need it. I knew I needed it, but never got it before because I was afraid, because my parents told me I didn't need it. That was a big mistake. I needed help. I still need help. But at least I'm getting it.